Belly Aches

Lately, I have found myself belly aching over my belly aches.  I have found it hard to stop myself from focusing on the aches and pains of pregnancy.  So, I have been trying very hard to remember that each and every ache and pain is actually a blessing.  The hematoma, morning sickness, and fatigue of the first trimester.  The battle with myself over weight gain in the second trimester and the physical aches and pains of carrying a child in the third trimester.  They are all reminders of the miracle that is happening within me.  I haven't always succeeded in remembering, but God sure has had plenty of opportunity to take my belly aches and gently remind me of the miracle occuring inside of me.
So, I just want to take time out while I still can and thank God for allowing me to carry this child.  I know there are many different ways to become a mom and each one is special.  I just want to speculate for a moment how amazing it is that each life starts in a woman's womb.  That somehow is a few short months, God can create a human being.  It amazes me daily what God does.  How he knits someone together.  Someone unique and special with their own personality, looks, and purpose in life. 
While I am focused on that process, I also want to share something that has been kept close to my heart this entire pregnancy.  I have only voiced this concern to Bryan.  I have chosen to leave it in God's hands and see what is going to happen.  In fact, when I did share it with Bryan, I was shocked to find out that the same thing had been placed on his heart.  I am concerned that Henry may be born with a certain disability.  A condition that would cause others to see him as less than perfect.  Now, I don't know if it is simply fear that has been placed in my heart by Satan or a word from God that has been given to prepare me for what is to come.  All that will be revealed on Friday, when we meet our sweet little man.  That is why I have chosen to keep this close to my heart until now.  Why worry and fret about something that cannot be changed.
I do want to share it now because I want to be able to give God all the glory if it is the case.  I also want it to be a lesson for me no matter the outcome.  A lesson that God is in control.  That no amount of worry can change a situation.
I also wanted to share because I want it to be a reminder that Henry is practically perfect in every way.  He is who God created him to be.  His body is formed in the way that God wants it to be and his personality is set to serve the Lord in a particular way.  I am so excited to meet this little man.  I know several of you are as well! 
So, forgive me, if over the last few months you have been on the receiving end of any of my grumble and gripes about pregnancy.  I am so completely thankful for this experience and I am anxiously awaiting the arrival of this child.  Also, please forgive me if this blog somehow does not make sense.  I decided to take advantage of my insomnia and I am typing this in the wee hours of the morning. 
As the journey of this pregnancy is coming to an end and the journey of raising Henry begins, I want to thank you all for your love and support.  What a great testimony these last few months have been to the goodness of God. 
Now I am off to have a snack and hopefully a few more hours of sleep.