I have something heavy on my heart and I am just going to share it. Satan has a firm grip on me and I can't seem to shake it. This is where I am.
I can see nothing but my flaws. I look around and everything I see points to my short comings. I am having a hard time being around others, because it reminds me that I am not as good as they are. I am not as good of a christian that others are. When I am at church, I feel like everyone around me is living this perfect godly life. A life that I can't live up to. They have it all together. It makes me want to run in the other direction.
When I am around other mothers, I find myself realizing that I really don't have this mother thing together. I am not a good wife or house keeper. Everyone else has immaculate houses and perfect children, and I can't seem to even keep my toilets clean or Eleanor from back talking me.
It has even gone as far that I can't get on weight loss forums because I see that I am not losing weight as fast as most people that have had my surgery. Suddenly, my accomplishments are dim in comparision.
I feel like a failure on all fronts. I know it is all lies, but I can't shake it. These self doubts are swarming in my head all the time it seems. So, I ask you to pray for me. Pray that I can find my way out. This isn't a very happy place to be.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Everything You Need
For unto us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders and he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. Isaiah 9:6
What are you in need of this morning? Is it someone to listen to your worries or maybe someone to lead you to the right decisions? Is it a reminder that there is someone that is in control of it all? Or maybe, you just need to rest and find peace in the chaos of this world.
Isn't it wonderful to know that we can find all this in God. That no matter what we are in need of today, God is there to provide it. It is a gift given to us in the form of a child. It wasn't just given to the world, but to you and me. It is as personal as you want it to be.
So today, instead of trying to find fulfillment, comfort, or companionship in anyone or anything else, let us turn to our God. There is an attribute of God that is perfect for you today. Isn't that amazing! Everything and everyone else will fall short. But, our God is exactly what we need every time.
(Oh, and how many of you guys are now singing "The Hallelujah Chorus"? I am!!)
What are you in need of this morning? Is it someone to listen to your worries or maybe someone to lead you to the right decisions? Is it a reminder that there is someone that is in control of it all? Or maybe, you just need to rest and find peace in the chaos of this world.
Isn't it wonderful to know that we can find all this in God. That no matter what we are in need of today, God is there to provide it. It is a gift given to us in the form of a child. It wasn't just given to the world, but to you and me. It is as personal as you want it to be.
So today, instead of trying to find fulfillment, comfort, or companionship in anyone or anything else, let us turn to our God. There is an attribute of God that is perfect for you today. Isn't that amazing! Everything and everyone else will fall short. But, our God is exactly what we need every time.
(Oh, and how many of you guys are now singing "The Hallelujah Chorus"? I am!!)
Thursday, September 22, 2011
He Goes Ahead
Do you ever read the bible like you read a book? Skipping over the minor details just to get to the "good part". I was doing that this morning in Mark. I was reading chapter 14 as Mark is recounting the Lord's Supper. I read it like this. "blah, blah, blah....and when the evening came, Jesus arrived with the twelve. Mark 4:17". I knew that was an indication of where the story was to begin. The story of the breaking of bread and the drinking of wine. The story of betrayal being played out.
Then, something made me back up. I went back and read the first few verses of this account. There, I found something that is a true indicator that God goes before us. The disciples ask Jesus, "Where do you want us to go and make preparations for you to eat the Passover?" v. 12
Jesus answered, "Go into the city, and a man carrying a jar of water will meet you. Follow him. Say to the owner of the house he enters, The Teacher asks: Where is my guest room, where I may eat the Passover with my disciples? He will show you a large upper room, furnished and ready. Make preparations for us there." vs. 13-15
It got me to thinking that God was steps ahead of the disciples. He had to work in the heart of the owner of the house. Had to place in his heart to get that room ready. He may not have even known why he was doing it. God also had to get the man carrying the jar of water to the right place at the right time.
Why do we think that things are out of control? It was a time for me to stop and reflect on the fact that everything is being worked out for us. It may not be how we perceive it should be, but God is in control. Let me say that again. GOD IS IN CONTROL. He is in control of the big things and the little things.
God was working out the big plan of his son being sacrificed on the cross. In doing so, he was also orchestrating the little things to ensure that his will would be done.
Wouldn't it be easier if we could just rest in the knowledge of this fact? God can handle it. He is not going to make a mistake. I woke up with a verse in my heart this morning. I think it sums it all up.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
Then, something made me back up. I went back and read the first few verses of this account. There, I found something that is a true indicator that God goes before us. The disciples ask Jesus, "Where do you want us to go and make preparations for you to eat the Passover?" v. 12
Jesus answered, "Go into the city, and a man carrying a jar of water will meet you. Follow him. Say to the owner of the house he enters, The Teacher asks: Where is my guest room, where I may eat the Passover with my disciples? He will show you a large upper room, furnished and ready. Make preparations for us there." vs. 13-15
It got me to thinking that God was steps ahead of the disciples. He had to work in the heart of the owner of the house. Had to place in his heart to get that room ready. He may not have even known why he was doing it. God also had to get the man carrying the jar of water to the right place at the right time.
Why do we think that things are out of control? It was a time for me to stop and reflect on the fact that everything is being worked out for us. It may not be how we perceive it should be, but God is in control. Let me say that again. GOD IS IN CONTROL. He is in control of the big things and the little things.
God was working out the big plan of his son being sacrificed on the cross. In doing so, he was also orchestrating the little things to ensure that his will would be done.
Wouldn't it be easier if we could just rest in the knowledge of this fact? God can handle it. He is not going to make a mistake. I woke up with a verse in my heart this morning. I think it sums it all up.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Today
This is the day that they Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
What if we really did this? What if just for one day, we recognized that the Lord has made today and today will will rejoice and find his goodness in it. Just for one day, we find the good in flawed people. Just for one day, we count our blessings. Do you think we could make it an entire day? I think it will be hard. But, for today, I will keep this verse in my heart and I will meditate on it.
Today, this normal and mundane day, is the day that the Lord has given me. May, I see Jesus in everything I do and may I see the love that Jesus has for each person that I come into contact with today!
What if we really did this? What if just for one day, we recognized that the Lord has made today and today will will rejoice and find his goodness in it. Just for one day, we find the good in flawed people. Just for one day, we count our blessings. Do you think we could make it an entire day? I think it will be hard. But, for today, I will keep this verse in my heart and I will meditate on it.
Today, this normal and mundane day, is the day that the Lord has given me. May, I see Jesus in everything I do and may I see the love that Jesus has for each person that I come into contact with today!
Friday, September 16, 2011
One Simple Question
I was reading in Mark this morning and was given a nugget that I feel most people often overlook. I was reading the accounts of Jesus in chapter 10. Two times in this chapter do people stop Jesus for a specific reason. Two times, Jesus turns to them and asks one simple question.
Then James and John, the sons of Zebedee, came to him. "Teacher," they said, "we want you to do for us whatever we ask." "What do you want me to do for you?" he (Jesus) asked. Mark 10: 35-36
Jesus stopped and said, "Call him." So they called to the blind man, "Cheer up! On your feet! He is calling you." Throwing his cloak aside, he jumped to his feet and came to Jesus. "What do you want me to do for you?" Jesus asked him. Mark 10: 49-51
In the first scenario, the disciples want Jesus to grant them the right to sit and his left and right side in glory. Jesus who is all-knowing, knew what they wanted when they approached. Yet, he wanted to hear it from their own lips. In this case, Jesus' answer was NO.
In the second scenario, there was a blind man named Bartimaeus. He called out for Jesus to have mercy on him so many times that the crowd told him to shut up. But, Jesus heard and had compassion. He told him to come to him and then he asked the same question. Now, don't you think it was obvious what this man wanted? But still, Jesus wanted to hear it from him. In this case, Jesus' answer was YES.
Different people, different requests, and different answers. The only thing they had in common is that Jesus wanted them to present their requests to them. What do you want me to do for you?
Maybe Jesus is just waiting for you to ask. The answer may be YES, NO, or NOT NOW, but you will not know until you ask. Just one simple question. Today, may we just go to him and just ask!
Then James and John, the sons of Zebedee, came to him. "Teacher," they said, "we want you to do for us whatever we ask." "What do you want me to do for you?" he (Jesus) asked. Mark 10: 35-36
Jesus stopped and said, "Call him." So they called to the blind man, "Cheer up! On your feet! He is calling you." Throwing his cloak aside, he jumped to his feet and came to Jesus. "What do you want me to do for you?" Jesus asked him. Mark 10: 49-51
In the first scenario, the disciples want Jesus to grant them the right to sit and his left and right side in glory. Jesus who is all-knowing, knew what they wanted when they approached. Yet, he wanted to hear it from their own lips. In this case, Jesus' answer was NO.
In the second scenario, there was a blind man named Bartimaeus. He called out for Jesus to have mercy on him so many times that the crowd told him to shut up. But, Jesus heard and had compassion. He told him to come to him and then he asked the same question. Now, don't you think it was obvious what this man wanted? But still, Jesus wanted to hear it from him. In this case, Jesus' answer was YES.
Different people, different requests, and different answers. The only thing they had in common is that Jesus wanted them to present their requests to them. What do you want me to do for you?
Maybe Jesus is just waiting for you to ask. The answer may be YES, NO, or NOT NOW, but you will not know until you ask. Just one simple question. Today, may we just go to him and just ask!
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Shrinking
Tomorrow I will be 4 months post surgery. I wanted to share with you my new progress pictures. I try to keep myself from being too critical. I know I have a whole lot more to go, but I want to share with you the progress.
As of this week, I have lost 47% of my excess body weight. I am almost half way to my goal. I have lost 57 pounds and a ton of inches. I am down 2 pants sizes and 3 dress sizes.
I am having a hard time mentally catching up to where I am physically. I look in the mirror and I see some small changes, but still can't see anything drastic. I know it must be a distorted view because of all the amazing feedback that I am getting.
I want to thank every single one of you that has given me encouragement. The comments to my blog, the text messages, and the prayers mean more than I can even say. I love you all so much!
Most of all, I want to again give God the glory in this. He has taught me so much and every day I am learning more. He deserves all the praise for both my physical and my spiritual transformation in the last 4 months.
Well, here are the dreaded pictures. I hope you guys realize how hard this is to post these things every couple of months. I still shudder when I have to look at them. They are my beginning photos followed by my pictures taken this morning.
As of this week, I have lost 47% of my excess body weight. I am almost half way to my goal. I have lost 57 pounds and a ton of inches. I am down 2 pants sizes and 3 dress sizes.
I am having a hard time mentally catching up to where I am physically. I look in the mirror and I see some small changes, but still can't see anything drastic. I know it must be a distorted view because of all the amazing feedback that I am getting.
I want to thank every single one of you that has given me encouragement. The comments to my blog, the text messages, and the prayers mean more than I can even say. I love you all so much!
Most of all, I want to again give God the glory in this. He has taught me so much and every day I am learning more. He deserves all the praise for both my physical and my spiritual transformation in the last 4 months.
Well, here are the dreaded pictures. I hope you guys realize how hard this is to post these things every couple of months. I still shudder when I have to look at them. They are my beginning photos followed by my pictures taken this morning.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
My Comforter
Yesterday, my father was diagnosed with Parkinson's Disease. After I received the phone call, with tears streaming down my face, I entered the kitchen. I opened the cabinet and the fridge. What was going to give me comfort? I was looking for something that fill me and comfort me. Of course, my old pattern returned. I was looking for comfort from food. Searching for brownies, ice cream, cookies, or anything else that could make me feel better.
But, as I stood there, I remembered that I couldn't do that anymore. I would become sick with the sweets. I couldn't fill myself because there is no room in my stomach anymore. I can no longer sit down with the pan of brownies and drown my sorrows in the moist chocolaty heaven. This is one of the times that I count my blessings of this surgery. Even though I wanted to return to my old ways, the surgery was preventing me from doing so. For that I say, Praise God.
Now, I am ashamed of myself that I didn't turn to God first. My first real test of where my priorities lie and I still turned to food. Why did I think that food was going to make it all better? Take away the worry and fear that was plaguing me. I know better.
I realized I was going to have to deal with my emotions. I was going to have to process them, talk about them, and put them to rest. This is a strange process that I have had to learn how to do. It is not in my nature to conquer these emotions. I innately want to run from them and avoid them at all costs.
It wasn't until much later in the evening that I realized I needed to turn to the Lord for my comfort(I am so ashamed to say this). But, when I did, I found a peace. A peace that as a family, we are going to work through this. A peace, that Daddy is in safe hands. That the Lord is going to be there every step of the way. No matter what the future holds for Daddy, God is in control. There is where my comfort lies.
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 2 Corinthians 1:3&4
But, as I stood there, I remembered that I couldn't do that anymore. I would become sick with the sweets. I couldn't fill myself because there is no room in my stomach anymore. I can no longer sit down with the pan of brownies and drown my sorrows in the moist chocolaty heaven. This is one of the times that I count my blessings of this surgery. Even though I wanted to return to my old ways, the surgery was preventing me from doing so. For that I say, Praise God.
Now, I am ashamed of myself that I didn't turn to God first. My first real test of where my priorities lie and I still turned to food. Why did I think that food was going to make it all better? Take away the worry and fear that was plaguing me. I know better.
I realized I was going to have to deal with my emotions. I was going to have to process them, talk about them, and put them to rest. This is a strange process that I have had to learn how to do. It is not in my nature to conquer these emotions. I innately want to run from them and avoid them at all costs.
It wasn't until much later in the evening that I realized I needed to turn to the Lord for my comfort(I am so ashamed to say this). But, when I did, I found a peace. A peace that as a family, we are going to work through this. A peace, that Daddy is in safe hands. That the Lord is going to be there every step of the way. No matter what the future holds for Daddy, God is in control. There is where my comfort lies.
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 2 Corinthians 1:3&4
Monday, September 12, 2011
He is That Good
I want to share a little converstation that Bryan and I had on the way to church yesterday. It went like this.
Me: I really want to be out of the 250's.
Bryan: Maybe you will lose 4 pounds this week.
Me: Yeah right! God is good, but he isn't THAT good!
And we both giggled.
Now, fast forward to this morning. The dreaded scale day. I was really worried that I wasn't going to lose any weight. In fact, it is still something that I struggle with weekly. My relationship with the scale has not changed during the last four months. I still loath those few seconds that it takes for my weight to come up. I still have anxiety every time I have to weigh. Scared to death of what the numbers will say. I haven't really grasped the reality of my surgery. I still don't trust that it is going to do the job and I am going to lose weight! Isn't that crazy!
So, anyway, I get on the scale and flashing before me is 249! All I could do is say, "Oh My" over and over. Bryan said, "Oh no, is it that bad." Then he came to look and we both had to giggle in amazement. HMMM....GOD IS THAT GOOD!
I like to think that God used this situation to prove to me yet again that he wants to bless us. The blessings may not be big, but they are there.
Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him. Fear the Lord, you his saints, for those who fear him lack nothing. Psalm 34:8 &9
Are you like me? Do you think that you aren't "good enough" for the Lord to bestow his blessings upon you? When will we learn. It isn't about being good enough. It is about the Lord's unending love. Even if we don't feel like it, we are loveable.
So today, this verse explains how I feel. Praise him at all times!
I wll extol the Lord at all times; his praise will always be on my lips. My soul will boast in the Lord; let the afflicted hear and rejoice. Glorify the Lord with me; let us exalt his name together! Psalm 34: 1-3
Will you join me today in praising our Lord? Can you look to your life and find a blessing that the Lord has bestowed upon you? No matter how big or small, he still deserves our praise!
Me: I really want to be out of the 250's.
Bryan: Maybe you will lose 4 pounds this week.
Me: Yeah right! God is good, but he isn't THAT good!
And we both giggled.
Now, fast forward to this morning. The dreaded scale day. I was really worried that I wasn't going to lose any weight. In fact, it is still something that I struggle with weekly. My relationship with the scale has not changed during the last four months. I still loath those few seconds that it takes for my weight to come up. I still have anxiety every time I have to weigh. Scared to death of what the numbers will say. I haven't really grasped the reality of my surgery. I still don't trust that it is going to do the job and I am going to lose weight! Isn't that crazy!
So, anyway, I get on the scale and flashing before me is 249! All I could do is say, "Oh My" over and over. Bryan said, "Oh no, is it that bad." Then he came to look and we both had to giggle in amazement. HMMM....GOD IS THAT GOOD!
I like to think that God used this situation to prove to me yet again that he wants to bless us. The blessings may not be big, but they are there.
Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him. Fear the Lord, you his saints, for those who fear him lack nothing. Psalm 34:8 &9
Are you like me? Do you think that you aren't "good enough" for the Lord to bestow his blessings upon you? When will we learn. It isn't about being good enough. It is about the Lord's unending love. Even if we don't feel like it, we are loveable.
So today, this verse explains how I feel. Praise him at all times!
I wll extol the Lord at all times; his praise will always be on my lips. My soul will boast in the Lord; let the afflicted hear and rejoice. Glorify the Lord with me; let us exalt his name together! Psalm 34: 1-3
Will you join me today in praising our Lord? Can you look to your life and find a blessing that the Lord has bestowed upon you? No matter how big or small, he still deserves our praise!
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Quality Over Quantity
The other day, I was having a hard time with not being able to eat a meal anymore. How I basically just get to eat the meat and nothing else. I had posted a question on a forum for people that have had a VSG to see if anyone else had ever felt that way. One of the post back to me told me I needed to stop focus on the quantity of food and focus on the quality of food. It really made me stop and think. I realized that I needed to stop dwelling on the fact that I could only have 5-6 bites of something and start dwelling on how GOOD those 5-6 bites were!
Since then QUALITY OVER QUANTITY has been running through my brain. I realized that it is the same lesson that Bryan was trying to get me to understand when it comes to serving the Lord. You see, we had been stretching ourselves very thin at church. Trying to serve in too many areas and weren't being successful in most of them. He made me give up a lot of responsibility at church. Told me we need to focus on the one thing that we knew God had called us to do. That is love our children in our Sunday School class with all our hearts! Oh, how hard it was for me to walk away from all that I was doing. But, now I am starting to get it. Sometimes, we can get so busy doing things for the Lord, that we are not focused on giving any one thing our all.
Then, this morning I was reading the accounts of Jesus written by Mark. He was describing how busy they had been. Preaching the gospel and healing the sick. It was so crazy that they didn't even have time to eat. The apostles gathered around Jesus and reported to him all they had done and taught. Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have time to eat, he said to them, "Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest." Mark 6:30-31
It made me stop and think about how we try to cram our time in with the Lord(if we even accomplish it at all) into our busy day. But Jesus said to come with him to a quiet place. QUALITY OVER QUANTITY. In order to find peace and rest in the Lord, we have to spend some quality time with him. He doesn't care how long you pour over the bible if you are only doing it to check it off your to- do list. He wants you to take some time to be ALONE with him. To find some time with him when it is just you and your savior. A time when you can concentrate on adoring your God and praising him.
I just can't help but wonder how our relationship with the Lord would change if we started focusing on quality instead of quantity.
Since then QUALITY OVER QUANTITY has been running through my brain. I realized that it is the same lesson that Bryan was trying to get me to understand when it comes to serving the Lord. You see, we had been stretching ourselves very thin at church. Trying to serve in too many areas and weren't being successful in most of them. He made me give up a lot of responsibility at church. Told me we need to focus on the one thing that we knew God had called us to do. That is love our children in our Sunday School class with all our hearts! Oh, how hard it was for me to walk away from all that I was doing. But, now I am starting to get it. Sometimes, we can get so busy doing things for the Lord, that we are not focused on giving any one thing our all.
Then, this morning I was reading the accounts of Jesus written by Mark. He was describing how busy they had been. Preaching the gospel and healing the sick. It was so crazy that they didn't even have time to eat. The apostles gathered around Jesus and reported to him all they had done and taught. Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have time to eat, he said to them, "Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest." Mark 6:30-31
It made me stop and think about how we try to cram our time in with the Lord(if we even accomplish it at all) into our busy day. But Jesus said to come with him to a quiet place. QUALITY OVER QUANTITY. In order to find peace and rest in the Lord, we have to spend some quality time with him. He doesn't care how long you pour over the bible if you are only doing it to check it off your to- do list. He wants you to take some time to be ALONE with him. To find some time with him when it is just you and your savior. A time when you can concentrate on adoring your God and praising him.
I just can't help but wonder how our relationship with the Lord would change if we started focusing on quality instead of quantity.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Identity Crisis
I am having somewhat of an identity crisis. Not really sure of "who I am" anymore. Life has changed so much in the last few months. I am no longer connected to food the way I used to be. That has been coming back to haunt me in the last few days. Again, feeling the loss of food as a companion. It is not something that I expected. I thought I had that settled.
Also, I am having a hard time with Eleanor being in school. I no longer have a preschooler to take care of every day. I never really understood how quickly I clung to the job of "Mother". Now, I know I am still a mother, but my role has completely changed. No longer is Eleanor in my charge every moment of every day. So, what am I now. I am a housewife, I guess. My days are filled with cleaning, running errands, and waiting for my girl to get off the bus. I feel like my life is in limbo between the hours of 7 and 3.
Now, before you even ask or suggest, I will not be getting a job. Bryan and I have prayed and discussed this and we do not feel like it is where God wants me. But even so, I am having a hard time now that my primary role is shifting.
I think with this shift and with the journey losing this weight, I don't seem to know who I am. I do know who I am in the eyes of our Lord, and that is what I am clinging to. I guess in the long run, that is the only thing that matters.
But, I can't help but wonder what the new Mary will be like when I emerge from this identity crisis.
Also, I am having a hard time with Eleanor being in school. I no longer have a preschooler to take care of every day. I never really understood how quickly I clung to the job of "Mother". Now, I know I am still a mother, but my role has completely changed. No longer is Eleanor in my charge every moment of every day. So, what am I now. I am a housewife, I guess. My days are filled with cleaning, running errands, and waiting for my girl to get off the bus. I feel like my life is in limbo between the hours of 7 and 3.
Now, before you even ask or suggest, I will not be getting a job. Bryan and I have prayed and discussed this and we do not feel like it is where God wants me. But even so, I am having a hard time now that my primary role is shifting.
I think with this shift and with the journey losing this weight, I don't seem to know who I am. I do know who I am in the eyes of our Lord, and that is what I am clinging to. I guess in the long run, that is the only thing that matters.
But, I can't help but wonder what the new Mary will be like when I emerge from this identity crisis.
Some of you have been wanting to see updated pictures of me(the ones that don't get to see me on a regular basis.). I put these jeans on this morning and Bryan said "woozers". I have lost 13 inches in my thighs and only 3 in my waist, so I am in limbo of not being able to by a smaller pair of pants even though the legs look like tents!
New "biggest loser" style picture will be coming in a couple of weeks. :)
Friday, September 2, 2011
Just Believe
In Mark, chapter 5 recounts a story of a man named Jairus. He was a synagogue ruler who had a 12 year old little girl that was very sick. He saw Jesus and fell at his feet and pleaded with him to heal her. Jesus agreed and off they went, side by side, to Jairus' house. On the way, some men came and told Jairus that his daughter was dead.
Stop right there. What would your reaction be? Can you feel the devestation in that father's heart? He was just a little to late. His miracle was on the way, but it wasn't in time. Can you imagine the pain of hearing those word, "your daughter is dead"?
Now, listen to what Jesus says. Ignoring what they said, Jesus told the synagogue ruler, "Do not be afraid; just believe." Mark 5:36
Oh the sweet words of Jesus. Let it settle in your heart. I know so many of you are struggling with unthinkable situations. Situations that seem hopeless and you are afraid. Don't let the fear overwhelm you. Just believe. Believe in your Jesus. Trust that he is going to bring you through.
Jairus did just that. He kept walking with Jesus. All the way to face the situation at his home. A situation of commotion with people crying and wailing. Can you imagine how hard it was for Jairus to just keep going. To hold on to hope and not give up. He was just told that his child was dead!
Now, in the end, Jairus' daughter was brought back to life. She was healed. I don't believe that God will always provide a miracle, but I do believe that God will always walk with you all the way through every difficult situation. Trust in his simple words. Do not be afraid, just believe.
Stop right there. What would your reaction be? Can you feel the devestation in that father's heart? He was just a little to late. His miracle was on the way, but it wasn't in time. Can you imagine the pain of hearing those word, "your daughter is dead"?
Now, listen to what Jesus says. Ignoring what they said, Jesus told the synagogue ruler, "Do not be afraid; just believe." Mark 5:36
Oh the sweet words of Jesus. Let it settle in your heart. I know so many of you are struggling with unthinkable situations. Situations that seem hopeless and you are afraid. Don't let the fear overwhelm you. Just believe. Believe in your Jesus. Trust that he is going to bring you through.
Jairus did just that. He kept walking with Jesus. All the way to face the situation at his home. A situation of commotion with people crying and wailing. Can you imagine how hard it was for Jairus to just keep going. To hold on to hope and not give up. He was just told that his child was dead!
Now, in the end, Jairus' daughter was brought back to life. She was healed. I don't believe that God will always provide a miracle, but I do believe that God will always walk with you all the way through every difficult situation. Trust in his simple words. Do not be afraid, just believe.
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